| | Preface | p. xv |
| | La Familia | p. 1 |
| | Chicago | p. 4 |
| | Humboldt Park | p. 8 |
| | The Beatings Begin | p. 15 |
| | The Spanish Lords | p. 23 |
| | Murder in the 'Hood | p. 32 |
| | My Teacher Maria | p. 43 |
| | No Paradise | p. 51 |
| | No Home | p. 53 |
| | Jenny | p. 56 |
| | Lords of Nothing | p. 61 |
| | Chi-West | p. 67 |
| | Coward | p. 74 |
| | Can't Be Normal Even If I Tried | p. 79 |
| | First Kill | p. 86 |
| | The Acceptable Difference | p. 91 |
| | Officer Friendly | p. 94 |
| | China | p. 97 |
| | Back to the Hunting Grounds | p. 101 |
| | Betrayed into a Coma | p. 104 |
| | Madness | p. 108 |
| | Rosie | p. 116 |
| | Convenient Agreement | p. 118 |
| | My Girl | p. 123 |
| | Prove Myself Worthy | p. 128 |
| | Rape | p. 132 |
| | Crowned | p. 137 |
| | Violence Rules | p. 151 |
| | Madman | p. 156 |
| | Losing Maplewood Park | p. 161 |
| | My Rosie | p. 167 |
| | Down Brother | p. 175 |
| | Poor Rosie | p. 186 |
| | Juni | p. 189 |
| | Loca | p. 195 |
| | Morena, R.I.P. | p. 199 |
| | NRA? Lucky's Death | p. 206 |
| | Crazy Ways | p. 209 |
| | Disciplined | p. 214 |
| | No Lesson Learned | p. 226 |
| | Spread the Violence | p. 232 |
| | Enemies Near | p. 237 |
| | Disowned | p. 240 |
| | The Way It Is | p. 244 |
| | Another Addiction | p. 251 |
| | Close Call | p. 262 |
| | The Law | p. 265 |
| | Free? | p. 274 |
| | Older Woman | p. 278 |
| | Love Lost | p. 285 |
| | Lesson Learned, Finally | p. 292 |
| | Crownless | p. 295 |
| | Tragedies Continue With or Without Me | p. 298 |