Table of Contents
   Paradise Lost
      "Hey, Boy"p. 3
      Puerto Ricop. 9
      The Great Changep. 23
      Frigid Cityp. 31
      Thawing Outp. 45
      American Dreamp. 52
      Papop. 57
      The Loss of Papop. 67
   Hyperbolic Hollywood
      Making Movies: My Leap to the Silver Screenp. 77
      Hollywood Heaven: Louis B. Mayer and MGMp. 83
      Starlet Days … and Nightsp. 91
      Still Rositap. 99
      Rita Risingp. 107
   Men, Love, and Romance
      Eye Candy and Leggy Ladiesp. 117
      The Cocktail Party: Pimped?p. 129
      Dating, Hollywood Stylep. 136
      Meeting Marlonp. 150
      Love, Obsession, and Mind Gamesp. 159
      How to Survive Suicidep. 172
      Saved by West Side Storyp. 182
      Finding Myself in Politicsp. 193
      Falling in Love Againp. 201
   Reinventing Myself
      Marriage and Mami-Hoodp. 215
      Marlon and I Make a Moviep. 226
      Big Bird, The Electric Company, and Mep. 235
      The Accusatory Bananap. 244
      Losses and Blessingsp. 257
      Perseverancep. 269
      Losing Lennyp. 273
      The Atticp. 284